home sick today, i found myself staring out the window contemplating this particular horoscope. i have no idea what it means, but it got me thinking about the goals i had for 2011. i know better than to sit around hoping that the big change i want to happen will just fall in my lap. that's why it hasn't happened yet. i've not been on my game and i've been half-assing it.
instead of watching horrible weekday tv, i sat with a notebook and doodled a plan. i've mapped out my winter, and come spring, i hope to emerge from my den significantly closer to achieving my goal. (a goal is a dream with a deadline--a fortune cookie once told me.)
it's amazing how fast hours... days....weeks pass--time gets away from me. i said at the beginning of this year that this would be the year i turned the corner and made misfit hue my primary job. well, it wasn't. i was distracted with a whole mess of personal crap. i feel stronger now, but it was an exhausting year and i'm still easily distracted by shining things.
is there nothing left to do but accept this year as a failure? it wasn't exactly failure... it just wasn't what i had intended. the lessons i learned weren't the ones that i had hoped i would.
but, i'm not giving up. baby steps up the mountain--and i'm NOT looking back.
"To understand the shift occurring today, you must look at events from a lofty perspective. A slow liberation process is gathering momentum. Over the next few months you won't refuse an opportunity to rid yourself of an oppressive part of your past. You'll shed your old complexes and emerge renewed. Don't be alarmed if family relations suffer a bit. The distress is only temporary."
